Blog #10

The Writing of Lily

An Unedited Journal

(Blog #1 Starts in January with the Introduction)

January 30, 2001

I’m disappointed with my writing yesterday.  I was so tired.  I only worked three and a half hours at my Children’s Ministry job Sunday, but it wipes me out.  I always seem to need to rest on Mondays. 

Before going to bed late last night I reread what I’d written in this journal as well as the little I’d written and did some rewriting.  I think this may be a good practice every night to go to bed thinking about Lily, so my subconscious can work while I’m asleep.

Now to get down to today’s writing, and hopefully have enough energy to do some more cleaning in the laundry room as well. 

Later: still not happy with my output.  It just doesn’t flow. There are too many questions to be answered.  It’s 1:30.  I guess I’ll go clean the laundry room. 

Even later: I’m not happy with what I wrote today, not as much as I had hoped to accomplish on chapter 21.

I did some more cleaning in the laundry room, but still not finished.  There is so much junk collected over the years, 23 years to be exact. (I had a huge laundry room and I’m somewhat of a packrat. I not only saved personal things, but from my Children’s Ministry job as well.).

February 9, 2001

I attended the Children’s Pastors Conference in San Diego for several days, and took six volunteers from my Children’s Ministry staff with me.  It was great.  Now it’s back to Lily.

Today I’ll enter some of a chapter from The Prodigal Daughter by Jeffrey Archer.  There is a chapter that begins with telling the reader that this chapter is going to consists of funerals.  Lily will experience grief when several of her loved ones die.  I need to get the feel of that grief chapter.

February 10, 2001

I read chapter 21 to Evergreen Writers. 

February 19, 2001

Still doing a little revision on chapter 21 and trying to work on chapter 22.  It’s a struggle.

Later: some of the writing is okay, but I need more to complete the chapter.  I really want to finish this chapter and start on chapter 23 by the end of the month, so I can keep on schedule.

James is quiet.  Why? Tess is unable to read him.  He has a side she will never be a part of, but how do I show this?  His thoughts?  Can I do that?  I hope so.

February 20, 2001

I’m still trying to finish up chapter 22.  There is too much telling and not enough showing.  It is so hard.

March 8, 2001

I’m still trying to get started on chapter 23 and am not happy with chapter 22.  Although I’d like to stick with it, I just might set it aside and do some marketing and submitting of other projects.

I’m suffering with a cold and feel icky.  I was a presenter at the Christian Education conference at Faith Center (Eureka, CA). I did two sessions on my workshop, “How to be an Unforgettable Teacher.”  They paid me.  I felt validated.  I like feeling validated.

On March 14 I’ll be doing a job shadowing for two high school students.  I’m looking forward to it.  Now I must get to work.

March 10, 2001

Read chapter 22 to Evergreen Writers today.  It moves too quickly.  It really needs work.  What if James and Tess stay in Boston?  Get Married in Laurel Springs?  What is the conflict?  This is so hard.  What to do?  What to do?

March 17, 2001

The Job Shadowing Program wasn’t as exciting as I had hoped it would be.  I displayed most of my published credits and the two students didn’t seem to be impressed.  They yawned often.  I think they were interested in the subject, just tired.  Probably not enough sleep the night before.  Also, I had writer’s block on chapter 23 which was frustrating.

On Thursday night, March 15, I had a break through.  I decided to work on chapter 23—the fire scene and I was able to write two pages.  I am feeling much better now.  I think the reason chapter 22 would not come is because I may be misdirected and need to rethink that part of the book.

Now, today, Saturday, I’ll try to do some rewriting on the fire scene.

April 3, 2001

I did another rewrite on the fire scene.  I think it is ready to read to Evergreen Writers.

On March 31 I did the Seventh Annual Christian Education Appreciation Dinner at the Scotia Inn (Scotia, California). I spent most of the week prior to the dinner preparing for it. Honoring the volunteers at the dinner is always a highlight of my Children’s Ministry job.

Now, I will either go back and write chapter 22 or go on and write chapter 24.

April 8, 2001

Doing some thinking about inserting a scene with White Dove’s need to support herself with her art and find a place (studio) on Main Street, next to the blind school. How convenient that will be for Lily to possibly run into James.

April 9, 2001

Wrote two pages today on the scene before the fire scene; the chapter (22) where White Dove opens her studio and Tess and James return to Laurel Springs.

. . . Lily stood in the middle of the street, holding Willy in one arm and Luke by the hand. They watched as the sign White Dove’s Indian Art Studio was hoisted and attached to the front of Whit’s Dove’s new business . . . .

Lily dropped the newspaper and slumped deeper into the chair. So James married Tess. (Lily pg. 99)

I did a rewrite of the chapter titles adding some dates of scenes.

I had writer’s block in March and it is so good to be able to put some words on paper and see the characters act out what needs to be accomplished in the chapters I am working on now.


I finished chapter 22—White Dove’s studio and Tess and James return to Laurel Springs.  James sight restored.

April 10

Completed a short chapter of deaths—Fury, Anna, and now I’m working on William’s stroke.

I can’t believe the roll I’m on.  I’m writing twice as much as I usually do when I get a breakthrough.

April 14, 2001

Read chapters 22, 23, and 24 to the Evergreen Writers today.  I made the suggested changes.  Still need to do some expanding of scenes for pace and— now— forward.

April 16, 2001

I’ll have to put Lily on hold for a while; Melanie (daughter) and the boys are coming tomorrow for a few days.  I have an assignment for The Beacon and one for Standard Publishing (seven devotions).  And I need to catch up on my hours with Children’s Ministry job. 

While doing these other things I hope to keep at the back of my mind the possibility of Lily questioning God why?  Why Willy’s death? Why her wonderful father is paralyzed? White Dove will tell Lily how even Jesus questioned God—Father, why have you forsaken me? 

Lily will still be angry with God.

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